Where did it go?

Sit back and relax, this is a long one.

Recently I had the opportunity to attend a conference held by Hay House, called “You Can Do It”, in Las Vegas NV. It consisted of classes as well as seminars. I attended a day long class with Colette Baron-Reid author of “Messages from Spirit” on Friday. I then attended several classes as well as seminars on Saturday and Sunday. Saturday’s classes were with Brian L. Weiss MD author of “Many Lives, Many Masters” and Robert Ohotto author of “Transforming Fate into Destiny”. The keynote speaker for the evening was Doreen Virtue (I have and have read every one of her books, yes, I admire her work) author of, “The Lightworkers Way”. Sunday I had classes with Jonathan Ellerby Ph.D. author of “Return to the Sacred” and John Holland author of "Power of the Soul: Inside Wisdom from an Outside World”

To tell you my mind was spinning by Sunday evening would be an understatement. Is there such a thing as being too enlightened? If so, that is where I was by Sunday evening. For those of you who know me, you know me to be sensitive and open. I have been known to be extremely intuitive; you see I have a tremendously close relationship with my Angels and Guides. I went to these classes in hopes of bonding and meshing with like minded people. I went hoping to find direction and clarity. My husband kidded me for weeks; that I was heading for the “Mother Ship”.

Day 1 - My first mistake of course (and I know better) was to anticipate and yes, expect, what was to transpire. My first day there, I was seated in about the sixth row, fourth seat in from the aisle. A pretty good spot, however I was smooshed in like a sardine. The people around me were very friendly, so it was not too bad, ‘yet’. You see, when I am amongst large groups of people (and their people, you know the unseen ones) I tend to get overwhelmed with energy, which makes my head feel like an explosion waiting to happen. Now here I was in a room, (banquet room size) with a large group of people (and their people’s, people). My head, as per usual, started to pound about a half hour in to it. I was trying to ignore it because one, I had been looking forward to this for months, two, because the teacher was Colette Baron-Reid, whom, I am certain, I have known before, (This life I am but a face in the crowd, she has no idea that I have this gnawing feeling and probably never will, but I know and that works for me), and three, because I think she is a incredibly interesting, intelligent, down to earth, genuine and funny woman. (I highly recommend her book “Message from Spirit”).

Class began at ten and by noon my head was absolutely pounding off my shoulders. I thought I might sneak away at lunch break and try to get a meditation in, to see if I could clear some of the energy. However, that was not meant to be, for various reasons. Colette did show us some energy clearing exercises that did help a little bit, though, at that point I am pretty sure that anything short of a wind tunnel was not going to work. Like I said, the people sitting around me were very friendly and seemed genuine. But, the energy was closing in on me, I was feeling more and more the need to pull back and cocoon myself. We did some exercises to show people how to pick up on other people’s energy. For me, I had way too much energy circling me as it was, but, I was there, and I was going to get as much out of the class as possible, so I did my best to be present. We did a couple of exercises, i.e. holding an article from our assigned partners in order to get information; I got nothing, nada, zilch, zero. Totally ridiculous! I assumed it was because my head was pounding so badly that nothing was getting through. Colette was very engaging and fun. And I am considering taking her intensive class; however I will follow my gut when it is time to make a decision. The day ended and instead of sticking around for the keynote speaker, Dr. Wayne Dyer, I headed back to the room. I was fantasying about cutting a whole in the top of my head and letting the steam escape. Once I was away from the crowds and back in my hotel room my head began to calm down.

That night I tried to sleep, but instead, I had a horrific panic attack that kept me up most of the night- not terribly uncommon when I am around that much energy. I can’t imagine what the day would have been like if I had not grounded and surrounded myself with protection that morning.

Day 2 - Morning rolled around, which seemed impossible, because I had only about 2 hours of sleep. I made sure I grounded myself, meditated and surrounded myself with protection, hoping that would ensure that my day would not be a replay of the day before. By now, expectation had waned; I was not totally sure what the day would produce. My first class was with Dr. Brian Weiss, the author of many books that I have read. I had read his book “Many Lives, Many Masters” years ago. It was one of those books you pass around to everyone you know, because it made so much sense and you want everyone to experience what you had while reading the book, so it was exciting to be attending one of his classes. I decided that I should sit in the back so that I could bypass whatever energy might be lurking about. Last row, the nearest person to me was 5 chairs away. Dr. Weiss is a very soft spoken guy, probably from years of doing hypnosis. The room was the same size as the day before so I strained in order to hear him. Sitting in the back was not near as appealing as it had been earlier. From what I could hear he was pretty interesting, he talked about past lives etc. The class was 2.5 hours long, so a lot of information was given in a short period of time. We did a group past live regression; guess what came through for me? Nothing, nada, zilch, zero. Okay seriously, I did not even have a headache! Lots of people had a mind blowing experience; did I mention I did not?

Now I am thinking, what the heck is going on? I am feeling out of place, (and as my husband says, I was amongst my peeps). I felt a tremendous need to be alone. I didn’t really want to start up any conversations with anyone and only really spoke when spoken to, (honestly, I can stand in line in a store and know the complete history of the person standing in front of me and behind me before I even put my groceries down) and to top it off I was getting absolutely nothing energetically or otherwise for that matter. This was truly confusing to me.

My second class of the day was taught by Robert Ohotto, author of “Transforming Fate to Destiny”. I don’t really remember signing up for this class, but when my schedule came in the mail, it appeared that I had, I trusted that the powers that be felt it necessary I take this class, apparently I had something to learn. I honestly had never even heard of him until this seminar, (sorry Robert). Again I chose to sit in the back as to keep the energy from spinning around my head. I have to say I was pleasantly surprised! This guy was a great speaker, energetic, funny, and tremendously knowledgeable. Most importantly for me, I got it; I absolutely understood what he was talking about. I had several “Aha”! moments in that 2.5 hour class. He talked a lot about the Shadow self and how we relate to it and how once we begin work with our shadow self, creative obstacles pop up to stretch us, Wow, I have certainly lived that! But if I were to be totally honest, I did not necessarily agree with everything he was saying, which of course is perfectly okay with me, because the questioning always brings me deeper and as you all know by now, I am the President of the “I need to ponder this” Club. Once I have pondered, I am sure I will blog on it. Needless to say, I went directly to the book store and bought his book. I would have loved to sit down and had a conversation with him. I can’t see that ever happening, but it would have been a spirited and fun debate. I was also extremely relieved that there were no exercises to do in the class, I was batting 0 for 2 for the weekend and really was not up for making it 0 for 3. Oh and single girls…..not that I noticed because I am a happily married woman, but this guy…..very easy on the eyes. I swear, I only paid attention for all my single friends……Nothin but love for ya girls!!

Luckily, my headache had not returned, and now it is time for Doreen Virtue’s Seminar, author of “The Lightworkers Way”, and several dozen more books. Have I mentioned how much I admire this woman? If I haven’t, I truly admire this woman. She was the keynote speaker that night. Because I had paid for an all access pass, I was able to sit in the 2nd row (for this, I did not care if I got an energy headache), first seat near the aisle. AWESOME! She was awesome. She introduced her son, who until recently had been in Europe teaching Angel Therapy classes. They are going on tour together soon, if you have an opportunity to catch their speaking engagement, I highly recommend it. She did not disappoint, she was engaging, funny, intelligent and an unassuming speaker. She spoke from experience; she spoke out of genuine love for those of us seeking and those of us who are not yet seeking. Her light shown bright and it was inspirational to see and hear her. I could go on and on about Doreen and this seminar, but lucky you, I will save it for another blog. I will say however, run, don’t walk, find anything she has written, you will be glad you did. Also, a side note, there were no exercises to do during that seminar either, phewwww, still only 0 for 2.

Day 3 – My first class was with Jonathan Ellerby, Ph.D., author of “Return to the Sacred”, again this is a class I don’t remember signing up for, however there I was, signed up for it. Again, I just needed to trust that there was something I needed to learn. I had never heard of Jonathan until that day, (sorry Jonathan). His book is not due out until September, so he had to resort to a power point screen, to talk about his book. Again, I found myself understanding what he was talking about, but not totally agreeing with everything he said. His experiences were physically challenging; spending days in the wilderness, no food, no water, seeking answers to his questions. His experiences were nothing short of amazing and inspirational. One of the things he talked about, that stuck with me was “When we look at the unchanging existence from the outside, we call it God. When we look at it from the inside we call it self, when actually it is but one”. Pretty deep stuff! I will buy his book when it comes out, I have no doubt I will feel the need to ponder after immersing myself in it. You got it, this will also be a future blog.

The next class was being taught by John Holland, Psychic-Medium, author of “Power of the Soul: Inside Wisdom from an Outside World”. Now, as a rule, I pick up very quickly when there are unseen visitors in the room, I sometimes sense them, I sometimes see them, I sometimes hear them, depending on the day and how in tune I am that day. Keep in mind that all the people in the room, (a very big room), that day were there anxiously hoping that a message would come through from a loved one that had passed, so logically it would make sense that the room would be over flowing with visitors. Makes sense right? Yep, you guessed it, my tuners were on the blink, I picked up exactly nothing, nada, zilch, and zero. This, if I had not already been paranoid about not picking up a thing in any of the other classes I attended, would have been just fine by me. But, I was now 0 for 3. What the heck was happening? John was fabulous, absolutely dead on, no pun intended. He was entertaining as all get out, but was absolutely serious about what he does. Though nothing came through for me or to me that day, I would see John again in a heart-beat, not so I could receive a message from beyond, but just to watch him work. The word amazing does not do him justice. I know I sound like a broken record, but, if you have a chance to see him work, take it. You will be glad you did. He has the most beautiful light about him and is as down to earth as anyone I have ever met. After the class, he, as did all the authors after each class, sat down and did a book signing. This was the 5th book that I was having signed that weekend, so the spelling of my name Theri, (pronounced Teri) tended to throw people. When I handed him my book, he said, Theri (correctly), I was taken aback, more than once over the weekend I had to pronounce my name correctly. I said “Wow, that is amazing, no one ever says my name correctly”, he just smiled and said “I am psychic remember”. I know this is something he will never remember because he sees thousands of people a year. But it will be one of those memories that I will always refer back to when the name John Holland is brought up. What can I say, it’s the little things. And I might add, it did lessen the burden I was carrying around. You remember, the 0 for 3 burden.

The last seminar wrapped up and I had some time before I met up with my husband and his parents to celebrate their 45th Wedding Anniversary. I called my son to see how he was feeling and to chat about my confusion. I explained to him that I simply could not figure out what was up with me. Though the weekend had been extremely enlightening, and that I was tremendously glad I went, I simply did not feel like I had any more clarity about the next step in my life than I had before I went. No matter where I am, it never feels like I fit in, I never feel like I have found my nitch, I was so hoping this weekend would help me find it. I was rambling on and on probably sounding a little frustrated, when he interrupted me and said “Mom, maybe you were meant to be there so you would know what you are not suppose to do in the grand scheme of things. Maybe you did not get anything intuitively in any of your classes because if you had, it would have distracted you from whatever direction you are suppose to be going”. And there it was, that AHA moment when every thing comes together. Of course! If something had come through, if I had gotten even a inkling that I was to go in this direction, or that direction, I most likely would have followed it. Oh, I know, eventually I would have realized it or my Angels would have strongly nudged me on, but it was nice to realize it earlier than later.

On my flight home I decided to listen to the Angel Therapy meditation by Doreen Virtue, which I had picked at the on site book store, so that I could unwind and ……wait for it……yes, ponder! Once I dropped in to meditation, I immediately started getting visions of past lives, one right after the other, not that any of them made any sense, but I was elated that my block had lifted. I wrote them all down when I finished meditating. I assume that they will all become clear to me at some point, but I can’t help but think that it was my Angels, guides, teachers or masters, way of showing me that all was well. For now, I am good with that, I am just thankful and happy that I did not lose my gifts somewhere between Minneapolis/St. Paul airport in Minnesota and McCarron Airport in Las Vegas.

At the end of the guided meditation, Doreen instructs you to ask the Angels if they have a message for you; I did this immediately (seriously, I was on a roll, I was soaking it all up). The first thing I saw was a beautiful eagle soaring through the sky, as it was flying, a baby eagle fell out of it’s stomach (yes, I know birds are hatched) the baby eagle started to hurtle to the ground in a spin, the wings were tiny, and as I watched the tiny eagle, the wings grew, and grew until he too was soaring through the sky. I looked up and above the smaller eagle was the original eagle flying high enough to watch over the small eagle. I wondered why the bigger eagle did not swoop down to help the baby eagle while it was spinning and hurtling to the earth. It was then that I realized, had the original eagle done that, the smaller eagles wings may not have grown so quickly, thus stunting it’s progress. Once again the "Aha"! moment was upon me. For three days I struggled, trying to figure out what was going on. I felt nothing. I saw nothing. I heard nothing. In an instant I was reminded, I am being watched over. If "Universe" had swooped in to help and simply told me what my lessons were, my wings may not have grown, therefore how could I ever soar!

I looked up the Eagle totem: Eagle, Spirit, Healing, Creation, the eagle is the symbol of the zenith. A great reminder of your own ability to soar to great heights. Eagles are messengers from heaven and are the embodiment of the spirit of the sun. Its four-toed feet remind you to stay grounded even when soaring high; its talons remind you to grasp the things of the earth; its sharp beak shows you when to speak, how much, and how strongly. This totem will show you opportunities and how to ride the winds to your benefit. Eagle people can live in the realm of spirit, yet still remain connected and balanced within the realm of the Earth. You must become much more than you ever dreamed possible.

I believe my lesson comes through loud and clear.

Love, Light and Angel Blessings Theri