TIRED!

For a couple of weeks now my motivation level has been next to nil. I am literally not motivated by anything at all. I can't get motivated to diet, exercise, decorate the house for Christmas, Christmas shop, read a book, learn anything, meditate or even grocery shop. I can't get motivated to do much of anything other than to get out of bed and go to work. For those who know me, you know that I am not an unmotivated individual, so this lack of motivation has sent ripples of guilt right through the stratosphere for me.

As the days pass and the guilt builds up, I am forced to figure out this conundrum I am in. This morning I was telling my husband on the way to work that I am so “tired”. I am tired mentally, physically, and emotionally. I feel like I could sleep for a week. Is there any rhyme or reason for this? I wish I knew. Off the top I would say no. Life is good, I have a great life, a great husband, great kids, a good job and supportive friends. Yet, I am indeed tired.

One thing I have noticed that sticks out like a sore thumb for me is that I have not pondered in quite some time. I am big on pondering; I would even go so far as to say that a lot of my motivation comes from pondering. So why have I not pondered? Because I am tired! Yes, it does indeed sound like a vicious cycle.

Thus, my journey to figure this out begins. As always I first ask my Angels; either they are not talking, or I am not hearing; I suspect the latter. That is not to say that my Angels have not been chatty, just chatty for everyone else. I just don't feel like I have been given any insight to my current situation. Next I ask for a dream that may offer some insight. I asked for dreams, and dreams I got. However, none of them seemed to offer any assistance. That is until I put pen to paper.

Dream #1: I was in a very large arena or round theatre much like an amphitheater; I was inside but outside was a hurricane. I knew that my parents had Garrett, who was still a baby, and I knew I needed to get them in to the amphitheater where it was safe. I went out in to the hurricane to get them, I found them at a house I did not recognize, and they were all in bed sleeping. I asked them why they were there instead of the amphitheater. My Mom lifted Garrett up to hand him to me, just then the hurricane blew the house off its foundation. I was then back in the amphitheater and there were dead celebrities just mulling around. I don't know if I was dead as well, but I could see them. (I know nothing strange about that.) Soon guys with some type of noxious gas were walking around randomly choosing already dead celebrities to gas, which oddly enough killed them again. Then they walked up to me and sprayed it on me, I saw a flash of white light and fell to the ground. I could hear footsteps running toward me, It was Garrett, he picked me up (now I knew I was dreaming) and moved me away from the gas. I told him that they had gassed me; he said not to worry about it because he got there in time.

Dream #2: I was in a doctor's office exam room getting my blood pressure taken. The nurse taking my blood pressure insisted on using a child’s blood pressure cuff. I told her she needed to use the adult one but she did not listen. When she got the results she said “Oh, I must have made a mistake.” I told her, “Of course you did, you used the wrong cuff.” She said I would have to have it redone, and I was to wait in the waiting room. Ted and Garrett were waiting with me; I was irritated because I did not think I should have to wait because it was not my mistake. I knew Ted had a 2:00 appointment with someone, so I knew this was taking too much time. At 1:10 the nurse came out and told me it would be another 20 minutes. I got angry and told the nurse that I should not have to wait since she made the mistake and that if it was going to be another 20 minutes I would need to reschedule. She grabbed my chart and circled the number 198, next to my blood pressure reading and wrote “counseling” next to it. When we were leaving, I looked at the clock, and it was 1:31.

Dream #3: I was standing in the ER that the show ER is filmed in. Nila, who is one of the doctors on the show, was walking around asking for food. She was very, very hungry and for some reason did not have money to buy food. Then she was standing in a room and on a bed stood the most impeccably groomed goat, I had ever seen. Nila, was staring at the goat deciding whether she should kill the goat and eat it because she was so hungry.

And I wonder why I am tired! Good Lord, how much rest am I actually getting?

I will spare you the dissecting of each dream and simply give you what a friend of mine (Thank you, Diana) came up with, and after pondering it, it feels right.

I believe the dreams were telling me: Warning!!! You need rest, to take care of MY needs and to be compassionate towards myself. If I keep taking (voraciously) from myself and entire being, something negative will fatally consume me.

So basically, in a nutshell, stop feeling guilty, let yourself off the hook and just rest, is the gist of it LOL! I lost a night’s rest so they could tell me to rest? Criminy!!!

But as my friend pointed out, would I have gotten the message had I not had the dream or for that matter three in a row, all completely different but pointing to the same thing; most likely not.

I know it seems like a whole lot of dreaming for such a small amount of information. You see my Angels have a terrific sense of humor, and they know that I am going to analyze the heck out of whatever they give me, so as a rule they will give me more than what is probably necessary.

As I am sure you have guessed by now, reading for someone else is so much easier than doing it for me.

I read the first edition of Wings; (www.whatsuponplanetearth.com), and it seems I am not the only going through this need for rest. She writes “The first phase is now complete. We have taken things as far as they can go. We have infused our light, our energy, and much else of ourselves into an old world and brought it up to a very new level. We are now done”.

With that said I guess it is okay to be tired, a lot of work has been done; we have shed most of the old, even if we were not aware of it. A new day is dawning, one of much love and happiness. I just hope I am not too tired to enjoy it.

I welcome any other interpretations of my dreams, so feel free to write me and let me know your thoughts.

Love. Light and Angel Blessings
Theri

An after thought: In Doreen Virtue’s book, Angel Numbers; the numbers in my dream are significant as the following:

2:00 or 200 –Your faith has brought you to a powerful and divine connection with God. Your faith is well founded, and you’re working in partnership with the Creator.

198 –Dive right into your life purpose without delay or hesitation. Take divinely guided action first, and you’ll find that financial support is always there.

1:10 or 110 –Keep thoughts focused upon God and divine love, as you’re creating your reality with your thoughts and beliefs. Engage in creative activities.

20 –The creator asks you to have faith. Even if you can’t see the results of your prayers and actions right now, trust that they’re bearing wonderful fruit for you.

I have not pondered the meaning of these numbers or how they weave in to my dreams, but thought I would share anyway.